I snapped at my cousin on Thanksgiving :( I was bitch because I couldn't explain what I was feeling at the time. Ever had that feeling? Well, instead of cussing your love one out, tell them your feeling is ineffable. (Don't ask me how to pronounce the word lol) Word of the day = ineffable = the inability to explain a strong feeling. In my defense I was dealing with some shit. I warned her that if I started talking, the dam would break. Well, the dam broke. Instead of tears like I thought, my hot-tempered-ass side came out. (oh boy did she come out) Luckily for me, my cousin left the building and I was able to calm down. I turned off my electronics and allowed myself to feel the emotions. It felt like shit at the time, but in the long run it helped me to understand where the emotions were coming from. Not trying to toot my own horn, but I did damn good job in reflecting and not throwing shit around my room. So, toot toot for me :) I was able to pin point my feelings and mentally jot them down. I then put them in my little brown box in the back of my head and tied a pretty blue bow around it. This allowed me to go about the rest of the day without lashing out, and it gave me notes for the next time I saw my therapist. I was able to take a negative situation and find a silver lining. I still wished I wasn't a bitch to her, but at least something productive came out of it. To sum it up, if you are going through some shit, find a silver lining (if possible) to at least get something fruitful out of the shit.
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